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You better remember these words, I'll only ever say them once
I often wondered why the world seemed so dark even when the sun was showing itself against the bright blues of the sky. Maybe I found myself moving closer to the shadows than to the light. Maybe I just wanted to feel alone instead of alive. Maybe I just loved the dark.
You stopped playing with cookie-cutter hearts and instead made it your mission to put mine back together. Too bad my heart is like a game of Perfection. All the pieces have a specific place they have to go, and if you don't get them all in before time runs out, they fall back out again. You insisted you would figure it out somehow. I insisted that I'm the kind of puzzle that's near impossible to solve. There were just too many x's, and too many o's. Maybe I liked the idea of little pieces of my heart falling out to leave a trail I could follow later. Maybe I just liked games.
I never believed in magic, but I was all too quick to believe that dreams come true. I was black magic weaved through my fingertips that made the world turn to ash, instead of gold. You said it didn't matter, I could still be a princess if I wanted to. I said no. I was always scared that the crown would slip down and choke me. Maybe I thought I deserved it.
The dials on the radio playing in your car got lost along the way. Now all you can hear is static and songs pushing their way through the airwaves trying to have their melodies heard. You never wanted to hear the crackle and hiss but you did anyway. Now you listen to the silence, the music shrinking back into the shadows. Maybe I thought you would learn to like my broken-record thoughts. Maybe I wanted you to have a reason to stop listening to me.
You told me to hush and that the world would figure itself out, and I could just go back to the sweet taste of summer dreams and fairytale wishes. I told you I had nightmares instead of dreams (I learned my lesson the first time) and that my wishes were far from happily ever afters. Maybe I wanted you to know the truth. Maybe I liked the way your face twisted with pain, all because you loved me too much.
I woke to you writing words on my palms. You called me sleeping beauty and closed my lids like they do to the deceased. I never opened my eyes till the sun was far too high in the sky for it to be still considered morning. Your words were nothing short of breathtaking and still I knew I had to keep breathing, if only for you. I'm the one that's dying. Maybe I didn't want to believe those words. Maybe that's why my tears blurred them and made them a big blue mess.
I believed you. I stopped walking through cemeteries at night too (I liked making up stories about the people written on tombstones). I was scared I might find your name there someday soon (or mine). Maybe I needed something to believe in. Maybe I needed you to need me.
I believe I'm alone now
P.S. You fixed my heart (and broke it again, but I won't tell you that. I can't tell you that).
Now there are not enough x's and not enough o's.
I often wondered why the world seemed so dark even when the sun was showing itself against the bright blues of the sky. Maybe I found myself moving closer to the shadows than to the light. Maybe I just wanted to feel alone instead of alive. Maybe I just loved the dark.
You stopped playing with cookie-cutter hearts and instead made it your mission to put mine back together. Too bad my heart is like a game of Perfection. All the pieces have a specific place they have to go, and if you don't get them all in before time runs out, they fall back out again. You insisted you would figure it out somehow. I insisted that I'm the kind of puzzle that's near impossible to solve. There were just too many x's, and too many o's. Maybe I liked the idea of little pieces of my heart falling out to leave a trail I could follow later. Maybe I just liked games.
I never believed in magic, but I was all too quick to believe that dreams come true. I was black magic weaved through my fingertips that made the world turn to ash, instead of gold. You said it didn't matter, I could still be a princess if I wanted to. I said no. I was always scared that the crown would slip down and choke me. Maybe I thought I deserved it.
The dials on the radio playing in your car got lost along the way. Now all you can hear is static and songs pushing their way through the airwaves trying to have their melodies heard. You never wanted to hear the crackle and hiss but you did anyway. Now you listen to the silence, the music shrinking back into the shadows. Maybe I thought you would learn to like my broken-record thoughts. Maybe I wanted you to have a reason to stop listening to me.
You told me to hush and that the world would figure itself out, and I could just go back to the sweet taste of summer dreams and fairytale wishes. I told you I had nightmares instead of dreams (I learned my lesson the first time) and that my wishes were far from happily ever afters. Maybe I wanted you to know the truth. Maybe I liked the way your face twisted with pain, all because you loved me too much.
I woke to you writing words on my palms. You called me sleeping beauty and closed my lids like they do to the deceased. I never opened my eyes till the sun was far too high in the sky for it to be still considered morning. Your words were nothing short of breathtaking and still I knew I had to keep breathing, if only for you. I'm the one that's dying. Maybe I didn't want to believe those words. Maybe that's why my tears blurred them and made them a big blue mess.
I believed you. I stopped walking through cemeteries at night too (I liked making up stories about the people written on tombstones). I was scared I might find your name there someday soon (or mine). Maybe I needed something to believe in. Maybe I needed you to need me.
I believe I'm alone now
P.S. You fixed my heart (and broke it again, but I won't tell you that. I can't tell you that).
Now there are not enough x's and not enough o's.
Literature
the things we'll never say.
1.
snakes crawl out of my mouth,
hands like sleep waiting silently
for me to give into them.
i toss words like rocks
across my tongue, skipping
across the lake, and we reach,
hands outstretched, for the sun
but it's a shame it's all empty.
2.
listen, if you loved me, you
wouldn't try to fix me.
if you loved me, you'd paint
butterflies across the wall
to make me smile. listen,
if you loved me, you'd give
me handrails to hold onto
on the way down. you'd tell me
that right now, i'm a caterpillar
(but that caterpillars become
butterflies.) listen,
if you loved me,
you'd love me broken, too.
3.
don't speak.
sure, you cou
Literature
falling sickness.
one.
he reminded you of comets colliding and holding your breath underwater and bedtime stories. he was your rainbow, your sunny sky, your ledge to hold onto and the song you fell asleep listening to each night.
you couldn't get him out of your head.
you didn't even want to.
two.
there was no choice, no other option. there was nothing - nothing but him and the promises in his eyes and the whispers from his lips.
there was nothing but falling.
three.
he made you smile, made you laugh, made you want to live again. the two of you would go to the park just to watch the shadows chase each other on the ground. he'd hold your hand and tell y
Literature
confusing stars for satellites
i dream of your arms
around me, in empty hallways
lit by nightlights like dreams, imagine that
your breath would be like raindrops, maybe,
and i'll be the river
into which they fall, and i'd catch you,
lightly, i promise
we won't make a sound,
like mice on christmas eve, tiptoe across
holly staircases, tiptoe
on lakes, dance and watch
the moonlight shadow our
reflections, dance
around my dreams, in them,
and find that i would
fax you a smile, a rainbow, a
sunny day, even
my heart -
and yes, it's yours,
but only if
you hold me.
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Woah. Very heavy. I'm personally very moved by it. This is great!
-From a stranger =]
-From a stranger =]