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It's midnight morning in my bedroom and my sheets have yet to be encountered. I tell myself that sleep doesn't matter, it's one of those optional vitamins that will make you feel good, but you can also do without as long as you make healthy choices. I ignore the fact that healthy choices aren't always my specialty, seeing as I spent a good portion of this past year trying to breathe in every word you spoke to me.
Between the washer and my alarm clock, I can't tell who is getting the last say. It's like they're arguing about how things should be done. The clock says constant and steady, while the washing machine is screaming unorganized and inconsistent. I wish this didn't reflect us because everyone knows it's much easier to fix a clock than a washing machine.
Insomnia was always there, behind the folds of my eyelids, waiting to catch sleep when I needed it most. I never really noticed it until the day you came to school with purple circles under both acid green eyes. I told you that you should get some sleep, that you looked terrible. You only looked at me and said, "Well you look worse." It was then that I noticed the headaches and the deprivation hangovers, the paleness in my skin and the sick look in the way I moved my body.
It's past midnight in my bedroom and my pillow has yet to be depended on. I try to convince myself that you're staring into the inky black sky, searching for the pocketfuls of light we call stars too. But somehow I know you'll be getting some sleep tonight. You never needed me as much as I needed you.
I'm not even a victim of chronic heartbreak, it just looks like I am.
Between the washer and my alarm clock, I can't tell who is getting the last say. It's like they're arguing about how things should be done. The clock says constant and steady, while the washing machine is screaming unorganized and inconsistent. I wish this didn't reflect us because everyone knows it's much easier to fix a clock than a washing machine.
Insomnia was always there, behind the folds of my eyelids, waiting to catch sleep when I needed it most. I never really noticed it until the day you came to school with purple circles under both acid green eyes. I told you that you should get some sleep, that you looked terrible. You only looked at me and said, "Well you look worse." It was then that I noticed the headaches and the deprivation hangovers, the paleness in my skin and the sick look in the way I moved my body.
It's past midnight in my bedroom and my pillow has yet to be depended on. I try to convince myself that you're staring into the inky black sky, searching for the pocketfuls of light we call stars too. But somehow I know you'll be getting some sleep tonight. You never needed me as much as I needed you.
I'm not even a victim of chronic heartbreak, it just looks like I am.
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blooming, exploding
oh my, hair's caught in the branches again, am exhaling blue colours again, just wish the world was just white again, just wish the ground was quiet again as i press my ears to the dirt. the gnawing continues for hours. laughter echoes and crawls into my skin, stretching across my eyelids. i'm causing the whole floor to shake. it's swallowing me, biting me in the neck. i'm panicky- covered in a cold sweat, pressed up against a wall on my tippy toes. oh my, i need to close my eyes again.
oh my, this is the room where i've forgotten how to breathe. my lungs are made of ice and my heart is made of sand. my lips will crumble- i will evaporate fi
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you'll never know what i know
you fucked this up.
you fucked me
up; down; up&down
so sit down
and shut the fuck up
because i'm a little too avantgarde for you,
and you don't even know what that means
i can see it
in your eyes,
in your skin;
you hate me
(hate me with
the lights on)
just so you know,
you're pretty awful at hiding
it from me
(i will find out)
just so you know,
you're pretty awful at hiding
from me
(i will find you)
just so you know,
you're pretty awful
(you won't find out)
just so you know,
you're pretty
(i've given up)
not like you've
bother
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fingers dialing
I wrote a letter and buried it in the dirt. I wrote it for the tree's unraveling roots- just wanted to let them know that sometimes being awake isn't enough. I needed them to know that my mind is based on a story about a broken hand, and what goes on in my brain is not a rush of words, but rather a headache of loud sounds. and speaking is nothing more than these sounds falling out through my teeth. I needed to stop dreaming about losing my head and floating away. so this is me finalizing all things, saying I know I'm on the right track when I'm tied down and a train is coming. this is me screaming into a telephone, whispering that I'm scared
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I don't think I loved you as much as I just needed you there.
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This was written a while ago.
It's one of those pieces I don't even know
if it's fiction or non-fiction
Both I suppose.
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised
Bruised - Jack's Mannequin
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This was written a while ago.
It's one of those pieces I don't even know
if it's fiction or non-fiction
Both I suppose.
So keep it steady, now
Cause every inch you see is bruised
Bruised - Jack's Mannequin
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this makes me ache, it's so lovely.